Hi friends.
Sorry.
Since we last spoke, I:
-went to Pine Cove and committed to work for yet another glorious summer in the woods of East Texas.
-Went to Mississippi to watch my boyfriend graduate college, with a degree in Biology! He wasn't messing around! This was immediately followed by a trip to Baton Rouge to hang out with said boy. We ate sushi on a rooftop and watched the sunset. And he gave me a star. A real one. He's by far the best boyfriend I've ever had.
-Then I came home. I unloaded everything from my life at John Brown into the middle of my room, where it continues to reside. There are 4 essential holes in which you can place a foot in order to navigate from bed to closet to door. As long as you step only in those places neither you nor my stuff should break.
-Christmas was good. Good time with family. I got an ipod nano...me and almost every other person on the planet. I'm beginning to think that the Mac apple is the sign of the beast and that ipods will be how the whole world sees the stuff from revelation that we all apparently will see. Still, I enjoy my nano immensely.
-Then the boy came back and we built a 3-D puzzle of Notre Dame. It's incredible and it took us hours. You should stop by to see it.
-Steve and Michelle got married. It was beautiful. Really beautiful. I cried.
-I hung out with Daniel for a few more days and then I said goodbye. I left for Florida and he, eventually left for New Zealand. He's there doing a first year missionary program for the semester. It's really exciting, really adventuresome, really good...and I cried.
-I went to Disney World, ran a 1/2 marathon, took the picture with Mickey, nearly froze...got the shirt and came home.
-Since then I've been sitting on my couch watching seasons 4 and 5 of Gilmore Girls whenever possible. As of late school has gotten in the way of that for a few hours in the morning. I guess that's ok...may be for the best. Most of my classes don't seem like they're going to be too hard. Minor Prophets might be a challenge, but also really interesting. And it sounds like I have one of the best profs on campus for Educational Ministry of the Church.

So...I'm ok. I'm really confused about what the heck God is doing right now. I don't know what to do or how to do it...or I don't know how to do nothing. Sitting awkwardly in the corner isn't really working for me. Either way=confusion. I don't know why I'm here. I don't feel like I have a place. I don't feel like I belong, but it seems like everyone just keeps patting me on the head and telling me to get over my pity party. I can't...I've tried.
God is still faithful. God is still good. God is still love.
So I'm ok. Kind of bummed. Kind of weirded out. REALLY confused. But ok...I think.
(I have the right to retract that statement at any point if I suddenly realize that I am in fact NOT ok. Ok?)