Thursday, June 25, 2009

After reading some blogs and thinking about camp, I wrote a little poem.
I know that the tense changes. I know that it's been two years since I was there; I still get overwhelmed by it.
And I wrote.
Don't judge me.
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Camp again. My heart a drum.
I deeply dread, and yet I come
With honest expectation of
Seeing Jesus, feeling love.

I cry along the road trip here,
Forgetting grace, consumed by fear.
Then I’m there, the road just ends
And I have to jump and make new friends.

The weeks are short, the days, so long
The millionth time to sing that song
I’m can’t be excited anymore.
I need to sleep; my legs are sore.

But a camper’s heart begins to melt
Thank God. The pain no longer felt.
Miracles abound out here
As her blank stare emits a tear.

A tear, the evidence of Him
A love that’s felt in every limb.
Her arms once crossed, now raising high
Beautiful. I can’t help but cry.

The weeks are short, the days, so long
And I’ve been given a brand new song.
Jesus heals, redeems, and frees
Within the walls of those pine trees.

I cried the road trip home that day
Exhausted, sick, again afraid
I know that He is everywhere
But times like those…they seem so rare.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

It's not that I don't want to blog.
It's not that I don't have things to say, stories, observations, etc.
It's just that blogging requires the Internet, which we don't have.
And my job blocks me from blogging...unless this works...loophole!

I am a we now. I used to tell my boyfriend, then fiance, "We're not a 'we' yet," but we are now, and I love it. We have been a "we" for 9 months, and it seems more natural than "I" ever was.

Here are some things that are going on with "we," in no particular order:

We like each other.
We are going to have a nephew.
We are starting P90X.
We are sore.
We are celebrating my 25th birthday tomorrow.
We miss Matt and Liz.
We are so proud that Daniel made it through his first year teaching.
We are looking for a new-to-us car.
We like to eat taco salad on Tuesdays.
We wish I could find a new job...maybe teaching.
We can't wait to hear what flavor of baby Meredith is having.
We are excited that Switchfoot is coming out with a new album.
We are desperately missing camp. (We...mostly I... almost cry just thinking about it).

I missed you.
I hope to do this more.